[ Big hesitation, but that determination steels itself again, weaker though than before because this topic is big anxiety for him. ]
I can't talk for B, but for me... it reminds me of all of my worries about Aries and Haruto. You guys felt as close as family, and as someone who was doubting his place in your family... I guess it hits on those feelings of being replaced.
So with them it's both...
[ There's fear and self-doubt and loathing at himself for these thoughts, which digs in more as he continues. ]
... On one hand, it feels like you're replacing Aries and Haruto. And if they were so important to you, but could be replaced so easily, can I be? Is another Osamu fine as long as it's some Osamu... that's what I thought. So that's my selfish worry.
... On the other, I don't know how close you want to be with them. I haven't really talked to them, but the way they look at you and... be blatantly interested in you, it feels like... they're your boys too. And they only want to be involved with just you. Like your own set of B and C who don't really want me. And I'm too jealous to handle you having another set of boys in your life, but that's me being a greedy jerk. If you want to get to know them, I should be supportive, not jealous.
[ Big hesitate then. ]
... That's how I felt with Aries and Haruto too. They only really minded my existence for you, but if you didn't insist that I was important, then I would have never been anything to them. That our relationship as twins didn't matter except because you said so and it made me feel... dismissed. Like... they'd get rid of me even, if they thought it was something you'd like, with no hesitation for my own opinions because the only one that mattered was yours. That's... what scared me about them.
Re: Day 235, Emotionshare Game
I can't talk for B, but for me... it reminds me of all of my worries about Aries and Haruto. You guys felt as close as family, and as someone who was doubting his place in your family... I guess it hits on those feelings of being replaced.
So with them it's both...
[ There's fear and self-doubt and loathing at himself for these thoughts, which digs in more as he continues. ]
... On one hand, it feels like you're replacing Aries and Haruto. And if they were so important to you, but could be replaced so easily, can I be? Is another Osamu fine as long as it's some Osamu... that's what I thought. So that's my selfish worry.
... On the other, I don't know how close you want to be with them. I haven't really talked to them, but the way they look at you and... be blatantly interested in you, it feels like... they're your boys too. And they only want to be involved with just you. Like your own set of B and C who don't really want me. And I'm too jealous to handle you having another set of boys in your life, but that's me being a greedy jerk. If you want to get to know them, I should be supportive, not jealous.
[ Big hesitate then. ]
... That's how I felt with Aries and Haruto too. They only really minded my existence for you, but if you didn't insist that I was important, then I would have never been anything to them. That our relationship as twins didn't matter except because you said so and it made me feel... dismissed. Like... they'd get rid of me even, if they thought it was something you'd like, with no hesitation for my own opinions because the only one that mattered was yours. That's... what scared me about them.