shutthefoxup: (They call it lonely digging)
shutthefoxup ([personal profile] shutthefoxup) wrote in [personal profile] calmthefoxdown 2020-05-11 12:51 am (UTC)

Re: Day 235, Emotionshare Game

[Thinking it over...at first there's no emotion...but then there's a small flash of hurt, regret, guilt, loneliness...]

...it's hard to explain, but...Scythe and Coriander AREN'T Aries and Haruto. They're so similar but so different at the same time. They got a foot in the door because I miss Aries and Haruto so much...a cheat code. I'm not confusing them for each other. I just want to help them in the way Aries and Haruto helped me and pay it forward a little. And...a lot of the things I like about Aries and Haruto I like about them too. They're not replacements though, they're definitely different.

If another Osamu showed up here...I'd want to get to know them. They wouldn't be you, they couldn't replace you even if they tried. If you weren't here with me though...having a version of you here....it would be a painful reminder but it would also help the ache a little. Maybe that makes me a bad person... I'm probably using them a little bit to make myself feel better.

But no matter how similar other versions are, they don't share the same experiences with me. We don't have the same history.

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