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Good. But I like hearing it now too.

Mm, only special boys get ta hear it.

Good, makes me happy.

...you DO need to use it more around me before I start associating it with lewds.

We're not bein' lewd now.

[ Unless?? ]

We're not.

[smooshes Gold's cheeks]

I'm not in the mood, lucky you.

I'm a little relieved because if ya are on call I don't wanna be interrupted in the middle.

One of the many reasons I am not in the mood.

[ Leaning in to smooch through his squished cheeks. ]

You wanna take a nap on me? I can keep awake ta listen for if they call you.

Heh.

[lets go]

Yeah.

I need you to soothe me to sleep, sorry.

[ Laying back comfortably against the headrest. ]

I don't mind at all, you're cute when sleepy.

[curling up with, head on Gold's chest]

I'm always cute, right?

Of course, but sleepy B has a different appeal from having-fun B. They all appeal to me, in different ways.

Shower me with compliments about my appeal.

Sleepy B is super cute in his softness, in the way the stress of Imeeji finally fades out of his face and I get to see the honest boy who lingers underneath, his cuddliness is very appealing to me personally who wants to touch him all the time, his cute half-lidded eyes that aren't looking for a danger source but relaxed... it's all very soft and makes me want to wrap him up in a blanket so he can doze off for as long as he wants.

An honest boy huh...

Mm... I'm embracing my selfish side, and I like the bratty B who isn't worried about what someone might do to him for whatever stupid reason and can instead be comfortable.

Why is it so hard to be comfortable...

Trust, probably? We don't trust most'a Imeeji, so we don't feel like we can be vulnerable a lot. And... we've both been big sads and have a hard time trustin' in ourselves too. But bein' able ta trust in yourself helps a lot in bein' able ta be more comfortable even when ya can't trust the people around ya.

[tiredly]

Makes sense...

[ Petting B's back. ]

... I've only let myself trust a few people for a long time but... I'm workin' on trustin' more. And if I get burned for it, then I get burned, but...

[ Nuzzling into B's hair. ]

I'm tired of bein' scared.

Mmmm....

So I'll be big and cool and brave, so Shuuya can be too someday.

[tiny little huff of laughter]

[ Kissing the top of his head. ]

Now, sleep for Shuuyas.

[he dozes off quickly and quietly, cozy with the boy, sweet in his slumber~]

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